2008 was good…I had better experiences compared to my 2007…but as they say the best is yet to come.

Pain.Anger.Hatred.Betrayal— I want to spare my 2009 with such unhealthy vibes. I have suffered enough for 2008…I guess I am deserving to be happy just like anybody else. I have been good enough to others….it’s just that..my best wasn’t good enough. As my pain increases, my anger and hatred grows even more, and I didn’t like it and truly hated myself for entertaining such evil thoughts.

Friendster – it was really a big help, especially  seeing and communicating again with old faces and old friends. But for some personal reasons I have to give up my account. It’s not that I am closing my doors to those dearest people in my life, I guess there’s always life after friendster. I am concentrating now creating new profile for other sites, and It is always nice to try something new. I learned to like facebook, it is more intimate, since I only have few friends, and only those who have really touched my heart who are in my list. Good thing blog sites are now available, coz I get to share my insights in life, relationship, friendship and life in general.

Friends.and More Friends — one is silver and the other is gold. It is always best to keep both. And will continue to count more treasures. I lose some friends, but I gained more  and new friends I. love being with my friends, they just make my world really go round. Especially those times, I was on top, they cheered me up, even when I was down…they remained.

Success and more Success – I have been blessed because god has lead me to my new world, and have been my guide ,to be  of service to his special children. And they even add meaning to my happiness and existence. I finished my SPED with flying colors, I was just so inspired of doing things for them, I hope I have touched their lives as well.

Moving on, second chance, letting go, forgiveness – I am more forgiving now…for it is in forgiving I learned to move on , I pray harder now..even doubled, because with prayers…everything moves.I can forgive, that is why I offer  second chance. It is always best not to hold grudges. I learned to smile to my enemies, and yet leaving them the reason behind, why they afforded to hurt me.

Family comes first – they are second to none. The pillars of my strength. There is nothing in this world that is worth living for—they are really worth indeed a one in a million. A new baby is coming, hopefully it will be a baby boy, since my brother is longing for one…. another blessing, and another angel to guide us all.

Love is all the matters – why we always hurt the ones we love. I don’t know if I should make this as my themesong. But anyway, as long as I know how to love, I got all my life to give, and know how to live and I stay alive.. I will survive, sa gugmang giatay.

More faith, and endless faith – you just have to keep the faith no matter what! above anything  else, you just to pray and ask, because he always listens, and will never fail us, he may not answer it with a YES , but always with what is BEST!

I can say, I was still blessed. I will never be this firm and strong If I have not conquered all my struggles in 2008. It is a cliché, but then again, everything always happens for a reason, we may not be able to solve the puzzle right away, but in time, the answers will be provided. I was still blessed because spite of what had happened in my life, I am still alive, and now even more than willing to go on with my life. I stay humble for the life God has given me.

Life indeed, is sometimes not fair. But if you get to see the other side of the picture, you can say,  that indeed, the best is yet to come..just believe. Life isn’t fair..but it is still good…

Christmas time as they say, is best express by giving more than receiving. Aside from giving, more than anything else the virtues that I received is worth more than thousand of gifts.

FAITH

Last week, considered to be the most tragic moment of my December affair. A thousands worth of money was stolen from me, the money was intended for the company’s Christmas party, I found out one Monday morning, and the party was set to be held on Thursday. At first, the initial reaction, I cried hard to death, for the first time , I didn’t expect such thing to happen. There were so many instances, that I managed to left some money on my drawer, never it happened. Why now? It’s only two days, and the party is all set. I don’t know where to get the money to cover the cost for the food and venue. I prayed so hard, if not to find the culprit, but find the best solutions for the party to be successful. My boss was so understanding enough to disregard the incident but focus first on the event. For straight three days, I couldn’t see myself smiling, talking to other people, I managed to hold myself and my concentration to get the party done. I could already feel the excitement of everybody, and yet here I am, still bothered and couldn’t help myself back to where I should be.

Our sister company, was scheduled to hold a mass one Tuesday morning and I was assigned to attend. I don’t know what was really the intention of my boss, why he wanted me to attend the mass. When I was there, a lay minister was holding a talk. Then I realized, good thing I was able to attend for he hit me not once but twice. He was talking about the preparation of the coming of our dear savior. He asked the employees, If we are prepared for the coming of the Christ savior. Then he said, just like a thief where we don’t expect them to come to our house and steal something from us. They come to us during unexpected days. We are not prepared when they would robbed us. Just like the coming of Christ the savior, we are busy buying our presents, making a list, and yet are we really preparing for his coming? It hit. I never expected it to happened. I was never prepared and I never imagine a thing could happen. Nobody told me that a money will be taken from me. Should I cry hard for that? Then the lay minister continued his talk. He said, amidst the crises the world is experiencing now, we should still be thankful because we are still employed and the company is holding on to their employees, even if it is only break even. Then he said, no matter how big the problems , no matter how big the cross we are carrying now, we don’t have the reasons not to go on with our life, we don’t have any reason not to celebrate Christmas with a happy heart…. Because just for one reason…GOD IS WITH US.. so why worry. I almost cried. Why? Because though I was praying hard to have my problems be solved before the party, yet I am still worried. Again I forgot that thing that there is nothing to be afraid, for God is with me. I was just busy praying for a solution, I forgot to think that God was indeed helping me solving the problem by making me realized that in time, a solution will be given. When I returned to the office, Cathy was happy to see me smiling, finally. And I am all set to have the party started. As they say the show must go on.

JOY

I was there for her when she was totally down, when her life turned upside down, when her love story was starting. I even wrote a blog for her. I wanted to be there for her every step of the way. From her struggles and success, I am became a friend in the truest sense of the word. When she almost lost the man she loved, she cried a bucket of tears , I was there to listen. She couldn’t afford to lose this guy, who made her happier , and had moved her feet back to where she belongs. I told her, God wouldn’t allow this to happen anymore, to hurt you even more. God is never like that. When you think that you were so over burden with problems ,and  God wasn’t listening to you… it was never like that. I told her, God must have like you doing your thing, because God sees in you the heart that never surrenders, a mind that never underestimated her senses, and a soul that never gives up. She hurt the guy’s feelings, yet I told her, to just keep him the space he wanted, good thing, she admits her mistake, and with humility she asked for an apology. When God is making the plan, he is really indeed gonna make it happen. A week after the struggle of their relationship, she found out she was pregnant. What a JOY god has given her. The best gift a woman could have. Thou not all people were happy about it, but as I always told her, don’t let the devil steal your joy. It is time to be merry , what a joy in your heart to received such a special blessing this Christmas time. I will continue to love her…even more.

KINDNESS

When the party was over, I am back again with my senses, that I need to find the solution for the money that was lost. Unexpectedly, one person has offered a help, if ever the company would obliged me to replace the money that was lost. I said to myself, I just live it up to God, everything. Then come Friday, I shared my problem with my sister, and right there and then she told me about one person who is willing to help. I was never introduced to the person. It was my sister who brought the issue. If indeed, a help will be materialized, a good Samaritan is still around the corner. God never fails to listen. Kindness is just around the corner. Not here, not there…it is just everywhere.

When my good friend Jeanalyn, asked me last night what is the best gift I received this Christmas. I honestly told her, nothing, I mean materially none. And I said to her, it is still in giving that I best celebrate Christmas. And then she is set to give me her presents, by january…its the thought that counts, better late than never..right Jen?Because for me, these things that I wrote here, are the most unexpected gifts, and yet the best gifts that I received this Christmas. Nothing can ever surpass the Faith, the Joy, the Kindness that I received, not for myself but for others as well. When you give, something is given to you….a hundred folds of faith, joy and kindness.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Is christmas just really for children? What christmas really mean to us? Does it always means giving , forgiving, gifts and more gifts, hope, get together, sumptous food, christmas tree and santas?  A child would always look forward for christmas because it’s the time when he can get bigger presents from his mom and dad. For an adult, they also look forward to it, since it’s a time of giving and loving by friends and special people in their lives. For aged people, thou some tend to forget the meaning of christmas, but in their hearts I know everyday is christmas time, because they long to have their families get together because that is all that matters to them.

When I was young, these are the things that made my Christmas sooo memorable and special : Christmas caroling in the neighborhood, that includes singing the Christmas carols using our own version of the lyrics and tunes. Putting up the Christmas tree, and literally we used trunks of  jackfruit tree, because we cannot afford to buy the very glamorous Christmas tree that you see now in stores, but still it is very delightful to see, since my father put some different Christmas lights on it, that according to him it is still a Christmas tree. Who could have missed the Manito –Manita with friends and families. Receiving gift is I guess the most awaited part of celebrating Christmas, right? Hearing the media noche mass, is also memorable for me, thou I always end up sleeping on my mother’s lap (lol) , excited to attend the mass because I get to wear my new clothes. Tell me who doesn’t? And the best among the rest??? It’s SANTA CLAUS. Almost all of us during our childhood days, never fails to put our Christmas socks, waiting for santa to fill it up with chocolates and candies. Only to find out…it’s our dearest parents who acted as santa’s, and never misses to put those stuffs for us …just for us to be happy and merry.

My grandmother has been staying with us for  four years . Whenever I go home for christmas break, I see to it I have something for her. Thou she is partially blind , but I could really feel the happines whenever she received something from me. It’s  the thought that matters, right?. She knows it is clothes, but she doesn’t even care what color or if it fits her.  She gladly receives it with a smile. Everything .. is priceless for them. Because they are now barely remembered.

I was 22 years old when I stood as a godparent to a cousin’s son. I don’t know much of the significance when you’ve become one. All I know is that I am oblige to give him  presents during Christmas and Birthdays. Time passes, and I could not barely count how many of them already. Fortunately I’ve been blessed , they’re one of the few reasons why I suffered mild headache when Christmas time comes. (lol). But it is really a good feeling when you give. It is a worthwhile thing to do.

I cannot remember exactly when was the last time my mom stops giving us presents during Christmas. When I was in college, my mom would always say..I don’t have a Christmas gift for you anymore, since I already paid so much for your tuition fee. If it happened during elementary and high school, I would really cry a bucket of tears for that…but now, it’s a different level of understanding, thou to some it doesn’t have a significance , but for me, I didn’t mind at all, since it is true. When December comes, what they supposed to receive is all being paid to their debts of sending their children to school. But still , my mom never ceased to give us presents during Christmas. When I started working, I told them, it’s about time for me to give. Thou it doesn’t cost that much, but I know It is something that will make them proud of having me as their daughter.

When we make a wish list , the top most would usually go for material things, I mean with the latest gadgets, dreaming of having one, is not a sin after all. But we should also consider it’s not the material things that matters during Christmas. We should also consider the true meaning of celebrating it. Christmas maybe defined by kids as Christmas tree and carols then let them be, because what is true to their eyes is what being planted in their hearts. Christmas may mean to me, giving, sharing, forgiving, peace on earth, but what really matters is what Christmas really mean in your hearts. When you say giving, do you really give without expecting? When you share, do you really mean share everything what you have and not only what you want? When you say forgiving, do you really mean , yeah, it’s over let’s start all over again?

Christmas comes once in a year , but it doesn’t mean we only have to be forgiving during Christmas time. It doesn’t mean we only have to give during Christmas . It doesn’t mean peace on earth can only be best felt during Christmas season . Christmas is not as much about opening our presents as opening our hearts. Christmas can be meaningful to us in so many ways, we just have to understand the real meaning of what Christmas really mean to us. Christmas is forever, not for just one day, for loving, sharing, giving, are not to put away like bells and lights and tinsel, in some box upon a shelf. The good you do for others is good you do for yourself. Take time to help other people, especially those who are really in need.

Let everyday be Christmas ( Norman Brooks).

I have a very dear friend, who consider herself as believably unlucky in love. Because all her life, she keeps on searching , if not, been waiting for the right guy. Is she among the many who were born to wait and search? When does the heart says the search is finally over.

I remember during our college days, she was often left out whenever I go out on dates with my boyfriend, since I cannot tagged her along. She was just there for the advices and shoulder to cry on whenever problem arises. Good thing about her, she never made any attempt to influence me or whatsoever that having a relationship is bad, or made an influence that I need to get out from the relationship, since she always caught me in trouble with my relationship. Even up to now, she just listens and never bothers to influence my decisions. That is why she is so dear to me, because she let me be with my relationship… past and present.

Now, my relationship with her is so intense, that even our minds can talk and laugh at the same time. Our soul is so connected that even a single word, can bother us. One of the best topic we love to talk about..is of course…BOYS..or the supposedly men in our lives. How funny this men can be, on why we keep on searching them, over the net, over celebrations, over an aquiantance ..only to find out at the end of the day, there’s no magic after all. And we just laughed it out…and say..next in line please.. Being single , is the best thing for her. She can do a lot of things, being an independent woman, she strive to cope with everything..because for her she doesn’t have the energy to accept offer from anybody. Not until she meet Steve..

When she stopped searching…the guy came along. Strange..and too good to be true…. How do you know when you look at someone, that it is magic that tells you to stare. In every situation, risks is always there, it is just a matter of taking it.. The guy took the risk, and made his chance so worthwhile. How would you know, that the guy you have been waiting and looking for is just there in the coffee shop , in a flower shop, or in the streets. They meet accidentally… but I told her there are no accidents. Because when it happened…it was bound to happen. The feeling  the world is at your feet..is what simply my dear friend experienced when she meet Steve.

Everything just fall into its place. She never wishes to happen that soon. She wasn’t prepared for everything, because for her, love is the least priority and the least to prosper in her life. Since she consider herself, believably unlucky in love.

And it took them so long to find each other. Only to find out, it was just one ordinary day when they meet and nothing spectacular, but their meeting was a BANG! IT’S MAGIC!.

All her life, she prayed for a guy to love her the way her father has loved her. She asked for a guy who would never nor even dare to break her heart. She dreamed of guy who would give her everything and will treat her like a princess. She fantasized of guy who is someone who could be her protector and hero. She longed to be with a man who can make her laugh and see the positive world even with uncertainties. She needs a man who can appreciate the world at its best, someone whom she can create a beautiful world. All these she taught will just forever in her list. She never imagined meeting a guy who seems to be the everything she ever wanted. When Steve told her that he found the good world in her, for me, it’s not finding the good world, but rather, the world was created for them to build a wonderful life together.

All his life, I believed has been through a  tremendous journey of searching for a perfect world. Steve believed in angel..because he wished for a woman…who will keep him strong…he dreamed of a woman who will shelter him from the world’s uncertainties….he longed to be with the woman who will protect him from harm amidst the unpredictability of everything. He never imagined…when he asked for a woman …an angel was very glad to fulfill his prayers….an angel brought Jeanalyn to his life….I bet Steve has been diligently good these past years…because his prayers were granted..(lol) And now they are on their way of building their dreamland…. They have now each other to create a wonderful world… I believed they were both given the chance to differ ..between what they want and what they believe has been planned for them.

There is so much life for both of them, since they are just starting. But I truly believe that indeed what they have right now, can still prosper. They just have to keep the faith , and believe the reasons for everything.

Is the search finally over?? I am more than willing to wait and see… But I am the happiest creature now for my dear friend. She deserves all the love in the world, like anybody else.

Posted in Life, relationship Tagged: finding love, searching ]]> http://mvbpsyche.wordpress.com/2008/11/26/unbelievably-lucky-in-love/feed/ 1 mvbpsyche http://mvbpsyche.wordpress.com/2008/11/25/official-tabulation-of-heartaches-part-ii-on-ldr/ http://mvbpsyche.wordpress.com/2008/11/25/official-tabulation-of-heartaches-part-ii-on-ldr/#comments Tue, 25 Nov 2008 05:25:02 +0000 mvbpsyche http://mvbpsyche.wordpress.com/?p=359 ]]> If I were to give definite words for a long distance relationship: It would be Challenging and Difficult.Just figure it out why I said so.

1. Long distance relationships is challenging . It’s all in the mind. You want more challenges? Then stay.

2. Long distance relationships is difficult. It is, if only one is pulling the string.

3. Long distance relationships can be fun because you’re away from each other in a period of time. The duration is crucial, but so is your attitude. Take a deep breath, and have fun with something else. (I didn’t say find somebody else. )

4. Long distance relationships needs patience. It is a virtue. If you don’t have it ,better  get out, because it is worst than you think.

5. Long distance relationships is like a rough patch. You can battled it, if you can. Because for others, it becomes a way of life.

6. Long distance relationships can also hurt you..it’s only… you get hurt at times.

7. Long distance relationships can make the heart grown fonder. But the questions is, how long can you survive it.

8. Long distance relationships can also develop your socialization. Because of the distance  you encourage yourself to meet other people. But you end up cheating your partner (ouch). SO be careful whom you meet and comforts with.

9. Long distance relationships can eat you alive. Because you missed each other, yearning to be together, trying to cath up each other’s lives, what hurts the most, you don’t even know when you would be able to be with each other..not now..but how soon..

10. In Long Distance relationships you will need to keep the faith that you have each other. Because If you don’t, then faith will bring you somewhere else worst…even to somebody else’ s arms.

11. In Long Distance relationships never let things happens without good cause. Because the relationship will surely doomed apart.

12. In Long Distance relationships, has also the possible and the impossible just like any relationship. There is only one thing to make it work— the will to make it work.

13. Long Distance relationships and marriages works on the same principle—-you need to master the art of adjustment..–real well.

14. In Long Distance relationships learn to lose yourself in the journey and you will enjoy every moment of it–Bitter or Sweet!

15. In Long Distance relationships you can also find your worth—  If it is worth for someone—worth the distance—and fear, commitment..a potential heartbreak…or even a potential real love…is worth all of the above and worse..

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I come to read an article about 8 Bad Break Up Reasons … and among the eight the last caught my attention: THE RELATIONSHIP DOESN’T ALWAYS MAKE YOU HAPPY… it may be true to some..and it may be inconsistent for others. In my own viewpoint, I shall say… it does somehow made me happy and at some point had made me restless..well not once but many times…

To quote from the article : Love may be a many splendored thing, but a relationship doesn’t exist JUST to make you happy. It’s not the answer to everything, nor is it an escape from all ills or an elixir to bring a perma-smile to your face. A partner can obviously be a great support in your life, but you’re still responsible for yourself, for accomplishing your individual goals and for keeping yourself entertained.

One of our main purpose in life is to be happy or at least make someone  happy. When we enter into a relationship we always consider the reason because she/ he made me happy, that is why I said YES! And it is always one striving point why you want the relationship to work because she/he made me the happiest person alive. But how about the thought  that  the person you love the most has the capacity to make you the happiest person in the world… and may give you the worst heartache you can ever imagine. If it does exist to make us happy then why we cannot have it for the rest of our lives. Why you doesn’t end up with the  person whom you taught had made you the happiest person in the world?

It’s not the answer to everything– yes it may not be. Sometimes we get into a relationship just because you feel she/he is the right person to spend the rest of your life with. There are even times that we get into a relationship just because you feel so unloved, and you want to try the luck of indeed finding the right partner only to end up…it was not meant to be. There are so many ways of finding the reasons why you get into a relationship. Some find him/her as the answer for being lonely, for being frustrated from the previous experiences. But then again, it’s not the answer to everything. Life indeed is not merely seeking answers but also finding meaning to those answers.

A partner can obviously be a great support in your life, but you’re still responsible for yourself— When we doesn’t have a partner, we say,  love hasn’t  come may way.. or worst…I think mine got hit by a truck…We all want to be in a relationship…. It’s always a good feeling sharing your love with other people, building dreams together, creating one world together, and it’s one hell feeling that I missed . Well, who doesn’t anyway. We all want a shoulder to cry on. Thou  we can get it through our family and friends, but it’s a different thing when it is being shared it with your partner…  . We all want to have a successful relationship, and we also dream  of ending up with  a great partner. But I guess, it is true, that we have to keep something for ourselves, and we have to be responsible for our actions. In love, you can give everything just to make your partner happy, but then again, think also of the other being that is inside you..and that is yourself.

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Rain ..rain go away..come again another day….Raindrops keep falling in my head…..rain gently falls whenever we say good night…. pumapatak na naman ang ulan sa bubong ng bahay…and so many songs about rain.

Yes it’s raining now and it’s killing me. How cathy and I wanted to go home and just stay in bed, cuddle ourselves with soft pillows. Why we feel so much about life when it’s raining. Why we feel so nostalgic when it’s raining…How i love the scene from the movie The Notebook, when they meet again and kissed in the rain…gouch…how my heart melts. When it’s raining…  It’s when I dreamed  a lot…eat a lot…I fantasize a lot..everything with lots….So before it’s too late, i browse some quotes about rain…and glad I’ve found these few drops of quotes on rain…raindrops..rainbows… cause I love rain..actually….

“ The best thing one can do when it’s raining is to let it rain.”

“In our lives there is bound to come some pain, surely as there are storms and falling rain; just believe that the one who holds the storms will bring the sun.”

“Sunshine is delicious, rain is refreshing, wind braces us up, snow is exhilarating; there is really no such thing as bad weather, only different kinds of good weather.”

“ Rainbows apologize for angry skies”

“Anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain.”

“Some people walk in the rain, others just get wet.”

“There’s always a period of curious fear between the first sweet-smelling breeze and the time when the rain comes cracking down.”

“It is best to read the weather forecast before praying for rain. “

“Rain showers my spirit and waters my soul.”

“Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky. “

“ Into each life some rain must fall, and when it floods, I deal with the waters the best I know how—I dance with life.” ( it’s my good friend jorel favorite shoutout)

“An angel in disguise he was, but somehow you fell for him. Until he broke your heart that day, and left you in the rain, but still I love you.”

“Like the rain I have fallen for you and I know just why you liked the rain. Always calling for you I’m falling for you now, just like the rain.”

“And when it rains on your parade, look up rather than down. Without the rain, there would be no rainbow.”

“Sometimes I see myself as a child in a rain storm, running around trying to catch all the drops in his mouth. I long for your adventures to be like the raindrops the child saves and not those which crash to the ground.”

“If love is shelter, I’m going to walk in the rain.” (how I love this..)

“The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain.”

“I’ve seen fire and I’ve seen rain, I’ve seen sunny days I thought would never end, I’ve seen lonely times when I could not find a friend, but I always thought I’d see you again”

“It takes both rain and sunshine to make a Rainbow.” ( I agree…)

“If you think it’s going to rain, it will.” (so better don’t..)

“Rain is grace; rain is the sky condescending to the earth; without rain, there would be no life.”

“You pray for rain, you gotta deal with the mud too. That’s a part of it.”

“One can find so many pains when the rain is falling.” (ouch..)

“The shortest period of time lies between the minute you put some money away for a rainy day and the unexpected arrival of rain.” (save..save…save..)

In my student life I have watched lots of movies as part of a course requirement, from drama to psychological thrillers. To name a few, Nell, Primal Fear, Rainman, Silence of the Lambs and among others. When I took  up Sped and DPE, the trend of film showing still continuous , from drama, comedy, true to life even love stories. The Other Sister, August Rush, My life as an Idiot, I am Sam, Mercury Rising, Coach Carter, Emperors Club, Freedom Writers, Dangerous Minds, Small Voices, Helen Keller, etc. If not only for the Reaction Papers I wouldn’t waste my time watching these movies. But honestly, they may be fiction or true stories, they opened my eyes to the reality that somehow their stories might be really true and it is indeed happening. I certainly like all of them, but I consider Emperors Club if not my best, my inspiration to become an effective teacher. I never thought a movie like Emperors Club could be so rich with movie lines, not until our teacher told us to take note of the famous lines and expand. Lines that teachers should value, and , I shall say they are very meaningful ones , I’m going to share some of their famous lines: ( Emperors Club is a story about an Idealistic teacher who wants to inspire as well as educate his students. Dedicated being a good teacher, He strongly believes in molding his students by using principles. However, his methods are put to test when one of his new student shakes his controlled world and threatens to undermine all that he stands for. His challenge was to change this young man while maintaining his integrity)

“WALK WHERE THE GREAT MEN WHO HAVE GONE BEFORE YOU HAVE WALKED—NOT JUST BECAUSE IT’S GOOD FOR THE GRASS, BUT BECAUSE IT’S GOOD FOR YOU”

- The grass is not always greener on the other side of the fence. Some people always want to find out. Some are content with their lives as they are. The trick is to find the correct balance. Do you ever think about the choices you made and how your life might have been if you find or someone else had chosen otherwise? Who would you be today if, at one or another crossroads, you had taken the “other “ path? What I’m saying is listen to your heart. If you really want to take the road most traveled, then by all means do so. But don’t be afraid of taking the other one just because most people don’t. Thank God we are not all alike, so there are many different paths to happiness. What works for me likely will be a bit different for others. I know there are many things in my own life that make me wonder If I should have taken a different path. Then I stop and think what If I had. I know I would be a different person than I am now, and the bottom line is I like me. I like who I am and what I feel, and if it is because of where I have been then so be it.. and It does makes sense.

YOUTH AGES, IMMATURITY IS OUTGROWN, IGNORANCE CAN BE DEDUCTED, DRUNKENNESS SOBERED, BUT STUPID LASTS FOREVER.

- We are not forever young, thus youth ages, we may have done great things during our younger years but it will soon be forgotten, as we grow up, we struggle in outgrowing our maturity, thus as we get older we become wiser. There are things in life that we do not know how to do it, times that we don’t know what is right from wrong, but this should never gives us the reason not to correct our mistakes, not because we were not educated, but we keep on failing because we prefer not to fight our ignorance, we never asks questions, but we prefer not look for answers, as they say he who asks questions is a fool for five minutes and he who does not is a fool forever, same with stupidity I guess, if we prefer to ignore things and never mind them, we will stay stupid forever.

THE WORTH OF A LIFE IS NOT DETERMINED BY A SINGLE FAILURE OR A SOLITARY SUCCESS

- We may have failed once and succeeded many times, still the worth of life cannot be determined by any counts of failure and success, because being successful is not counting how many times we failed, but how we take courage in facing life’s struggles. Thus, the value of our life is not measure by one failure or success. It’s not because we are unsuccessful at one point in our life, life becomes pointless and hopeless. And a sole success doesn’t make life perfect either, because life is a series of failures and success, a combination of both that we have to go through..Life is a process of becoming.

WILLFULL IGNORANCE IS INTOLERABLE

- In everything that we do, we are aware of what is not good and what is not, not unless you’re a fool and doesn’t want to know. In any aspect of our lives, we came across the struggle between right and wrong, if you choose to do the wrong thing, it’s not totally ignorance, because you know it’s not the right thing to do and yet you chose to do it.

ONCE OPPORTUNITY IS LOST, IT IS LOST FOREVER

- As they say opportunity knocks only once in our life. Once it knocks , grab it and fulfill it. Not all things is free, some you get it by merely a stroke of luck, and some even by chance. Once it is there, better grab it, and live it to the fullest, because it will only come once, chances are it will never come back again.

GREAT AMBITION AND CONQUEST WITHOUT CONTRIBUTION IS WITHOUT SIGNIFICANCE

- How will history remember you? We may have great ambition in life and have conquered the greatest battle in your life, but how people will remember of the things that you did in the past? Was there a significance with those great ambitions? Where you being honest? Was there a virtue and principles when you conquered those ambitions? People may not remember how fast you have conquered your ambitions or work, but they will remember how well you did it. And that is the most important thing, living your life with significance.

HOWEVER MUCH WE STUMBLE, IT IS A TEACHER’S BURDEN ALWAYS TO HOPE, THAT WITH LEARNING, A BOY’S CHARACTER MIGHT BE CHANGED. AND, SO THE DESTINY OF A MAN

- Children grow through experience if they meet life courageously. That no matter how often they fell, as long as they have the proper guidance and learning, they will have the courage to stand up and try again. This is how character is built. And character is what determines a man’s destiny. What he is now influences what he will become tomorrow. A teacher is just there to guide.

As one last lecture he said this to the new student: ALL OF US AT SOME POINT WE ARE FORCE TO LOOK OURSELVES IN THE MIRROR AND SEE WHO WE REALLY ARE AND YOU WILL BE CONFRONTED WITH A LIFE LIVE WITHOUT VIRTUE, WITHOUT PRINCIPLE FOR THAT I PITY YOU…END OF THE LESSON.

I encountered so many changes and struggles when I took up the course (Diploma In Special Education). It was never easy taking the journey, yet this is the most rewarding journey I’ve ever been to .My used to be free weekends was all of a sudden occupied by school classes and activities. I barely went home and be with my family during special occasions, since I have to attend to my weekend classes. My boyfriend and I used to argue a lot when it comes to time, since I could no longer spend time talking nor even chatting to him during weekends, since I am at school. I have missed a lot of out of town trips and girl bonding moments with my close friends, since I have to prioritize my studies (char). I spend less time doing what is best for my work. I tried my best to manage my time the best way I could. There are times that I almost gave up on one over the other, but with perseverance and determination I made it..and thank God I still have them ..intact and still dear to my heart…my family, my friends…my Big John and my work and  now I’m moving on to my dreams.

LESSONS LEARNED : Never ever give up. Learn to compromise.

And all I thought when the classes were done, the pressures were over. But I was wrong, it was far from over, time has been so demanding when I started my on the job training at Lapu Lapu City. The most busiest weekend I ever had in my entire life. I have to wake up early to get away with the traffic in traveling from Cebu City to Lapu lapu City. And spend my whole day at the center teaching the special children…and the most rewarding of it all, at the end of the class it’s a priceless experience when your students were able to read, were able to color and finished the activity you introduced, were able to perfectly sing the song you wanted them to sing, were able to say goodbye and say your name, Goodbye Teacher Manits. . It’s a worthwhile experience and a great feeling that gives me so many reasons to come back and it was something I look forward to during weekends. For three months of being with these kids, it thought me a lot about life. It is never too late to care and to share. Please do so when you can. These kids needs our outmost attention and understanding. There are times that you wanted to ask yourself, why in the world I’m with them. But then again, if you love what you’re doing, you would never mind at all finding the answers.

LESSONS LEARNED : 1. Our prime purpose in this life is to help others. And if you can’t help them, at least don’t hurt them. 2. If we find we cannot help others, the least that we can do is to desist from harming them. 3. Don’t say you care when you don’t understand them.

After months of struggling with school projects , examinations , activities…. I have finally reap my reward.

My last graduation rites was like 10 years ago…. (Still it was the most memorable one, because the whole family was with me to celebrate my success) Thou this time, It’s only  my sister who attended, I am still happy because a member of the family  was able to attend the occasion. I would even be more happy If my mom was able to attend..(but for some health reasons she has to stay at home). After a while of not seeing my classmates , I miss the happy faces.  as I look back all those struggles that we shared during classes, the cheating arrangements, the funny yet memorable moments we shared during practicum…it’s a sigh of relief, that this special day has finally come for us to celebrate.

All I thought It was just going to be a usual graduation rites for me, of course,  thou I can say it is a special day for me, because after being away from school,  again I am sowing what I reap . One of my mentors at school encouraged me to apply for With Honors ( she is one of the few who never ceases to be believe in me) , but when I found out there were so many students who applied for the said with honors and the school would only get the top 10 students of the DSPED, I just said to myself, I’d rather not expect too much , since there were over a hundred students who applied for graduation, they say chances are. When my name was called for students With Honors, I could not exactly explain the feeling, since I stopped entertaining the thought already , on the day when I found out that they will only get the top 10 students. Of course, I know my capabilities as a student, and I know there were also other deserving students, but I guess , I was also deserving  just like anybody else. My sister was also shocked, because I never mentioned it to her. I have worked hard to pass all the subjects, but I never thought I will reap this much. There were 140 DSPED graduates and the thought of being one of the  Top10 students is already an achievement. All I thought passing the subjects with good grades was good enough…not until my name was called.

LESSONS LEARNED, it is always best not to expect…. from anything, because If it is meant to be, it will be. Stay humble. Never forget to say thank you to those people who never fails to believe in you and prayed for you. Never ever forget to pray.

I know my journey has just started….I will be forever thankful for those people who never fails to believe in my dreams…my mom, my sister, my close friends….and I know my Big John is now starting to believe it as well and I thank him for that. And for those people who failed to see my capabilities…well…all I can say…until we meet again…but I should be thankful for them as well, because It will keep my spirit high in  achieving my dreams…and that is to become an effective (if not  the best ) teacher for these special angels.

Always believe in your dreams . It’s never too late to fulfill your dreams. And I really, deeply believe that dreams do come true. Often, they might not come when you want them. They come in their own time.

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I went to New7wonders site for updates , it’s good to know that three of the top destinations in the Philippines has been in the top 5 list of the New Seven Wonders of the World, and I’m glad I cast my votes for these spots, I love my own as they say. But among the three, Chocolate Hills (who ranked number 4, as of October 20, 2008) made a soft spot in my heart.

I remember I received a text message from a friend months ago, when she informed me that Chocolate Hills has been nominated for the new seven wonders of the world. And she made a campaign to go to the site www.new7wonders.com to cast my vote. How could I ever refused such request, when she was responsible for my first visit of the famous chocolate hills. And not only that, this spot is also very memorable to me, because my boyfriend and I visited the spot a few years ago, and the first tourist spot we ever visited.

The first time visit was with my friends. I could still remember the excitement of going there, to finally see the most beautiful creation God ever created for the country Philippines, specifically in the town of Carmen , Bohol. I’ve been hearing so many good description about the said hills. I have also read the different legends about the chocolate hills. Some say it is called chocolate hills because during summer the hills turn to chocolate brown and many others…well…the real stories behind it’s creation, all I can say, Philippines has been very blessed to be given such wonderful nature. Nothing beats the first time experience as they say.

The second time, was with my boyfriend. He has been reading a lot about the chocolate hills, and was amazed by the pictures that I sent. He wants to visit the said place when he goes back to the Philippines. And I offered myself to be his tourist guide. You don’t have to be a native of Bohol to be able to guide your guest to the said famous hills. Just be proud of what the place has, and right there, they are just as amazed as any other first timers. And one thing, it is a perfect place to visit for lovers , It is such a sweet gesture holding hands with the one you love as you both watched these beautiful creation.

I am very proud to have visited the said place. I am even more proud to promote the said spot because you already know the experience of being there. I will always treasure my memories of the now famous Chocolate Hills. Hopefully the spot will get the chance to be in the new seven wonders of the world. LOG ON TO www.new7wonders.com . Let’s continue to vote for Chocolate Hills. And good to know as of October 20, 2008, still from the Philippines , The Subterranean River National Park of Puerto Princesa, Palawan ranked Number 1, and Tubbataha Reef, in Sulu Sea ranked Number 5. My friends and I our planning to visit these two spots soon. Our country is still blessed with these wonders of creation in spite of everything, I mean politically, economically, still very glad that we Filipinos has something to look forward to. We may be forever a third country for others, but when it comes to natural resources, we are indeed WONDERS!